Freedom

I got to steal away with my husband Saturday night!

DH wanted to go hear a worship service about 2hrs away from here. He needed it, I needed it but I have to tell you that this was NOT-not- not a convenient time for us to go away-- even for 24 hrs. Our house is about this close to being finished, and put on the market to sell and 24 hrs away was not in MY plan. I have a list and a preconceived idea on how I want it checked off thank-you very much!

My husband, however, felt it was important that we take the time and go. He knew I needed a break. He felt like the Lord wanted us to go. (I told the Lord it was not a convenient time that if HE could just wait until after the house sold for this to be important I’d go then… to which I am sure I felt HIM smile)

But because my husband felt it was so important (and actually arranged for a place for the boys to stay) I went ahead and went.

I was so blessed! I am so glad DH and GOD persuaded me to go.

Here is the funny part although I was blessed by the services I was even more blessed- through a series of events - because I finally realized that GOD IS NOT ANGRY!

HE is not angry when I am an emotional wreck. HE is NOT ANGRY when I get frustrated because all I can understand the worship team to be singing is “Fill my propane tank.” HE is not angry with my personality about the things I need/want and need to work through.

Wow. What a concept.

I have a peace tonight that I usually don’t have. I feel like I can finally relax all the way.

I have been reading to my boys about Who God is. I have started with God is love. (I John 4:16) We read I Corinthians 13- you know the love chapter: Love is patient love is kind…because I want them to truly understand Who Jesus Is.

I think I am finally ‘getting it’, and I have never felt freer in my life.